Sarah's First Time- Who Was I

Young people today are starved for the truth about love, affection and sex. I for one want to be a part of the solution for these kids. I made my own mistakes when I was a teenager and have tried to set a good example for my own kids. Hoping and praying they would not repeat the sins of their mother.

So many of us wish we could change our history, it is my hope that by reading some of these real life stories you will make the right decisions.

You are a one of a kind; there is not anyone like you on the planet. You have been given a treasure to steward until you find the right person to share it with. Until that day comes, guard you heart and your virtue.

Thank you Sarah for being so transparent and sharing your first experience with us. You are an incredible young woman with so much to offer the world. I am truly blessed to know you. 

From "Sarah" ... (Not her real name)

I was 14 when I lost my virginity I am almost 16 now. I wish I could go back in time and take it back, wait a lot longer than I did. My advice, wait till your completely ready, not just because your friends have done it and you haven't. Here is my story.

I was with my best friend Maria and we decided to hang out with our friend Nick, who was my on and off boyfriend for almost 2 years. He always told me he loved me and I believed it. The last few months before we did it, he was always telling me how hot I was, asking if I was ready. Every time he asked me I told him, NO I am not ready. But he kept telling me how much he loved me and this is how I could show him I loved him. He kept asking me, saying. I was beginning to feel bad, I wanted him to know I loved him; he just couldn't take my word for it. He needed to be shown how much I loved him. So I finally said yes. He took me over to the neighbors backyard (now that I look back, I'm sure he had been there several times before). He wouldn't use a condom; he said that people who love one another don't use condoms. I had seen on TV how the first time should happen, but it was nothing like that at all. It hurt so badly. It took him a while to get inside me because I was ripping, but he kept pushing. He kept telling me to relax but I just couldn't.  I was scared and it hurt so bad. I told him it was hurting me, but he wouldn't stop he just kept saying "I'm almost done". Once he finished, he got up, got dressed and left and never talked to me again.

Still to this day he has never talked to me again, every time he said he loved me it was a lie. All he wanted was in my pants. Just to use me! Girls, make sure a guy truly loves you before you have sex with him. Wait till you are completely ready. It’s not worth the pain and suffering you go through if he just uses you and leaves you there like you never mattered. For 8 months I was so depressed. So ashamed, I should have waited. But Ii didn't and I regret it more than anything. I was totally heartbroken!